Most of us have no clue what we’d be doing in the next 10 years. It’s the one topic that we’ve been indecisive about since we were 5. I remembered wanting to be a librarian once because I thought it was the coolest thing ever scanning bar-codes. Oh thank goodness I change my mind. Then, I wanted to a cashier because I thought it was fun having the cashier pop open with cash. Yeah, so obviously I really didn’t put much thought into what I wanted to do. And I still don’t know what I want to do till this day, but I’m completely fine with that. I want to find my talent and make something out of it. I want to be able to find a job, that I’d wake up in the morning, completely fine with, having to go through the same routine for the rest of my life.
I’m not never going to follow every Asian parent’s dream. There’s a reason why it’s their dreams and not ours.
P.S. To clear this out of the water. I’ve been surrounded by photography since I was little, so I admit that it’s a hobby I take pride in doing. But it’s not one of my career choice whatsoever and it’s a shadow I don’t plan on following. You have to be your own person, with your own shadow.
So I’ve been having that feeling of being a little happy here, sad there, and angry whenever necessary. I obviously got too much going on in my head, but the different emotions at different hours are tiring me out! Hahah. Yeah, the teenage years kinda suck ass when it comes down to this type of stuff. Damn hormones. I need less of these bummer blogs. LOL. It’s even bugging me now.
On the other hand, today was well nice. Had a visit from two troublemakers, which they ended up staying to watch a movie. One, who ended up knocked out on my bed. Who which I’m going to miss very much, we’ll be hanging out still regardless of your move! Hahahah. And the second, was my lovely company. It was nice to just have you there, we didn’t have to do anything. The fact that your vibe was good, made my vibe good too. And your comforting hugs and our 3 way hug w/ our buddy. HAHA. I really did need one of your hugs, it was my fixer upper.
Howl’s Moving Castle + Kiki’s Delivery Service: My two favorites. Why? Because Christian Bale plays the voice of Howl who I had a crush on in the 7th grade. We’ve all been there okay..LOL. And what’s not to like about Kiki’s Delivery Service.
Castle In The Sky: Slept through that one …
Nausicaa: Weirdest movie …… but eco-friendly storyline!
Princess Mononoke: I love the wolves in this film. Two thumbs up.
*Not an Anime person, but these movies are a total exception.*
Watched it all day with my mom and the two boys that were sleeping like old dogs. LOL. Which they are slowly becoming. Chasing them at the dog beach was some work today.
There’s something magical about Disneyland. Its as if all my problems and concerns just disappear. All of my childhood memories go streaming through my mind in a heartbeat. The smell of sweetness when I pass the ice cream parlor, the sound of the clock from the castle, and the amazing fireworks shooting at night. A place where I’ve once spent my whole day with my love ones. The first place, I smiled the biggest ever.
The one and only place, where my childhood memories will never die out.
I love that all you care about is our family, that’s it. I love that you don’t care about what others think about you and you work hard in life. You work everyday, do overtime, to just support the family. Telling Gaby and I that we’re only pretty because of you. Hahah. Thanks for helping me not be such a complete girl, getting me into basketball and being my number one fan. You always tell me the stories about how you chase after mom and that you’d visit her every weekend when you lived in San Jose. Saying, “You know when a man loves you when they would drive miles and miles, regardless of where you are, just to be with you.” We yell at each other about stupid stuff, but at the end of our arguments we always end up teasing each other. Thank you for being such a great father figure in my life.
I’m scared shitless. Of what ? Everything, everyone, you, and even myself. It’s hard to press the reset button and try to rebuild a stronger me. I’m not the type of person that could just let things flow naturally. My mind is constantly planning something in my life and I over-analyze every single move I make.
I want am going to press the stop button and not rewind or fast-forward my life, but just let it play.
“I think everything in life is art. What you do. How you dress. The way you love someone and how you talk. Your smile and your personality. What you believe in and all your dreams. The way you drink your tea or your coffee. How you decorate your home or party. Your grocery list. The food you make. How your writing looks. And the way you feel. Life is art.”—
To a phone call informing me that my in-bed breakfast was almost to my house. He promise me on the first day of summer he’d do it, HAHA. Mission accomplished. Plus, I got my Pokemon drawing of Vulpix. That’s oh so awesome.
I still haven’t really accept the reaction from my parents when he comes over out of the blue, it’s always the opposite from what I’m thinking. Phew.
Haha, thank you. Yeah, I smile after I walk away. :)
I don’t know why, but I do. It’s not a regular smile either, it’s more of a smile that you’d make after someone just made you happy after you went through a lot during the day. Any songs would make me think of her, I guess. So far, it’s nothing as major as listening to a song and thinking “OMG. This is me! The lyric fits our lives; we should practically marry!” Right now, it’s more of a “Yeah.. she does make me smile like that. Lyrics basically described my day.”
Even when I’m showing you abusive loving throughout the day.. that’s how we do<3
I dislike it when someone comes up to me and just puts ridiculous stuff in my head out of nowhere. Something that I already know and I wish know it could change, it’s just the matter of time. I’m being as patient as possible, but certain people are just pushing my buttons.
Everything takes time.. you can’t rush anything because if you do, we all know you’re not going to come out with the best result at the end.
LD: I love you regardless of what we go through these next few years. We’ll go through every shitty situation we have to face until we die. With school being such a drag for the two of us, we haven’t been really stitched up those holes in our friendship. I know you have bigger holes to stitch up yourself, just be strong. I know for a fact, that you’ll succeed in everything you do. Thank you for everything. Especially for being the best friend I went to when I hit rock bottom. >3
AB: You’re a bi-polar psycho, that I consider a close friend. Haha. Our friendship could be a little rocky, but it always come out smoothly. I will always prevent you from doing the stupid mistakes that I’ve made. From decision making to boy chasing, whatever it is, I’ll always make sure you come out smiling. Because you out of all people deserve a real smile & true happiness. I’ll make sure your future love understand how much you love Genghis Khan food, not the guy.
JH: Bbygirl, you’re my life coach. I know you hate it when I say a lot of bullshit. You help me understand life in multiple perspectives. Even if we only knew each other for about a year, you know me better than I know myself. We always go our separate routes and always meet at each end. It’s nice knowing our friendship stays strong even if we’re not on the same path.
LD: We’re two completely different people, you know that? But day by day, we start getting each other’s shoes. We begin to get a better understanding of one another. Even if I hate you for getting me paranoid and concerned all the time, you’re still my dweeb. You put all these emotions in my mind everyday, but I can’t help being just plain happy with you.
AJP: I’ve been thinking about you lately, with how you’ve been and what not. I hope you’re staying out of as much trouble possible & being a good role model to Brandon. Our old “best friend” promises don’t really imply much now, but I’m still here for you. You put me through a lot of shit, but it doesn’t mean I still don’t care about you man. Nobody is stopping you from changing your life route, remember that. It will never be too late. I still & always stand by you with that statement.
I don’t enjoy the fact that people go off saying they like “vintage” things when they really don’t. Do you like it for what it is, really?
I enjoy antiques because it brings back a sort of history that we forgot that existed. All before the high-tech stuff came into the picture making our like, oh so much easier to live off by. True, it does & I do enjoy myself a few creative technology they’ve come up with these past few year. But, I’m an old-school fart. I don’t like updating my things often. I enjoy having buttons on my phone, watching VHS videos because they remind me of times when I was a kid, those phones when by the time you dial 9-1-1 you’d be dead (which I still want one), cameras that you still use film, and those granny-floral fabric/ vintage lacing patterns on clothing. It’s a form of art & history all in a piece of item. That’s the way I see it.
Today was just generally filled with laughs & smiles. I talked in Vietnamese for 20 minutes straight after lunch & everyone would call me a Fob. Must mean I’m pretty fluent in my Viet. Bomb! Got the chance to skip out on P.E today since Mr. Brennan needed people to help out at the bookfair. Then Liza invited me to go eat Boiling Crab with Laurieann, which Kelly Pham self-invited herself too, but glad she did because it made it all the more fun. While we waited for our ride, I tackled this boy w/ glasses & nice eyes from behind & we ended up on the grass talking. He personally told me what he liked about me from the whole Facebook challenge thing. You could tell it was hard for him to tell me since he’d close his eyes here & there, but it made it all the more meaningful. I couldn’t stop smiling. I hate you. LOL.<3
Then it was off to Boiling Crab & we each had our own order of cajun fries + crawfish/shrimp. We were complete fatties, but we enjoyed it very much. Finished with that and entered into Volcano Tea for the first time. Probably the last time as well, Tastea for the win! Came home & Liza+Kelly were just talking about random things, but it was those enjoyable conversations. Plus my two boyfriends Dunkin & Chester came home to visit. Then I realized it was Wednesday & I have a Spanish test tomorrow that I didn’t study for.