I woke up from a weak nap & it threw some pretty crappy thoughts in my mind.
After this day is over, I have one more day left before I go back to school. I’m still not accepting the fact of your transfer yet. The fact that I won’t be looking like crap to test if you’d still pay attention to me or dress up to impress you. Yeah, I did that. Do those colorful crossword puzzles with you after we were done with our lame essays. Its not the hugs or the kisses I’m going to miss getting before class started.
Its having you beside me when I’m feeling the lowest or the highest, that I’m going to miss most. Having you there, face to face, to experience my emotion rather than having to text you how I feel. That’s just lame. I want to be able to punch you out of joy or cry on your boney shoulder. Or see your dinosaur smile I love, whenever we were done talking about random stuff. I know I can’t do anything about it. I know you’re going to be “just down the street of the school.” It still sucks. I thought summer wouldn’t work out for the both of us, but turned out it did.
So, let’s see how this is going to turn out for the two of us this time.
Meaningless List. "Not eating meat does not mean you care about animals. Donating to the American Red Cross does not make you a humanitarian. Adopting a child does not make you a caring person. Wearing dreads does not mean you are proud of your heritage. Being alone does not make you lonely. Being talkative does not make you social. Having good hearing does not make you a good listener. Having a pretty face does not make you attractive. Just because you don’t lie doesn’t make you honest. Money doesn’t mean anything. It means everything.”
Hi, my name is: Veronique. Never in my life have I been: Seriously drunk. I like acting like a total nutjob on purpose. The one person who can drive me nuts is: My boyfriend. High school: I go to every high school. I transfer everyday. When I’m nervous: I start improvising & making dumb jokes. Its an awesome distraction. The last current song I’m listening to is: The Temper Trap- Sweet Disposition If I were to get married right now my best man: Dunkin. My hair is: Black. When I was 5: My sister stuffed oranges in the front of my shirt. Last Christmas: Was at my house. First Christmas tree baby. When I look down I see: My hairless legs. By this time next year: I’ll be even closer of getting away from high school. My current gripe is: Not being able to bite my boyfriend’s arm. If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: My best friend. Rub it in her face >3. The thing I want to buy: AN ACRYLIC RING ON ETSY ! If you visited the place I was born: Most likely you were born there too. High five! If you spent the night at my house: Movie Mania+Late Munchies. I’d stop my wedding if: ..Yeah, I wouldn’t. The world could do without: Cancer/STD/AIDS/DISEASES. Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: My first pair of Levi’s “Jeggings”<3 Most recent thing someone else bought me: Some food, thanks Mom. My middle name is: FRENCHY. In the morning I: Always gotta go. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: Pigs. Because if they say, ” When pigs fly.” I’ll just be like … there’s one right above you dumbass. Yeeeeeee. Last night I was: Watching a scene of Remember Me. Yeah, I’m a team Robert Pattison. If I was an animal I’d be: Chester. Only some would know why.Hehe. My birthday is: In the Winter.
“I refuse to accept other people’s ideas of happiness for me, as if there’s a one size fits all standard for happiness. Regardless of your position in life, no one but you is qualified to determine your own happiness.”—Kanye West
I don’t understand the whole purpose of being treated like that. You complain that I’m not mature enough to understand. Then when I understand, you guys complain that I’m too young to be knowing this type of shit. Ugh. After 18 years of being trapped in a box and making me feel like I don’t know any better, I’m going to be a free bird.
I’m capable of doing my own shit thank you very much. I’m your little girl, I get that but I need to learn on my own and grow from it. Can’t always depend on you guys on every single thing in my life. In reality, I can’t always be that little girl in this world that we live in.
3 simple words. Its said mostly to family members, best of best friends, and to your significant other. It has a lot of meaning to each and every different individual. It shouldn’t be said so often though, because it loses its true meaning. Its like looking at a piece of artwork for too long and it begins to lose the artist’s whole purpose of his/her work.
"I’m afraid that if you look at a thing long enough, it loses all of its meaning." - Andy Warhol
Same goes with words. Words are words, but they still uphold strong feelings behind them. Say it so often and its gone, look at something so often and its gone.
Its a way of expressing who you are as a person through clothing, it really is. A daring person would wear something an ordinary person wouldn’t think of wearing. A person that likes to show more skin than others, would buy revealing clothing. A Gothic person would revolve their closet with black & leather. A shy person wouldn’t add style or accessorize their outfit. A confident person would wear whatever they like, regardless of it being uncomfortable or not to make a statement for themselves. It is as simple as it is. What you wear, simply states who you are as an individual. Let’s face it. What our eyes see, determines a lot of our thoughts about someone. Your clothing shows if you’re presentable or not as human being without saying a word.
"Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say, and not giving a damn."
You know what I appreciate the most. When someone tells you something and they look at you straight in the eye. Not in an awkwardly way, but in a sincere way. You could tell a lot from someone’s eyes. Read a lot of emotions from them, its quite amazing. Its one of the nicest features in all human beings too. One of the only part of your appearance that you can’t change.
I would look into your eyes more when we talk, but I lose myself in my words when I do. Not because how pretty your eyes are, but the way you look at me when I do look at you. You have this specific way of looking at me. Its this certain warm, genuine way, when you do. I love it. Every girl deserves a guy to look at her that way.
I just got a visit from TonyTran, KevinDieu, RichardLe, KevonNguyen, & Aaron Chai. I haven’t seen Aaron for awhile, I’ve known him since Kindergarden & he has grown up.. like up up. So damn tall now. It was nice catching up with them though, regardless of the very perverted stories. My brain is always tormented by guy’s fantasies & realities when I’m around them…. And people wonder why I have a dirty mind.
They’re off to Guppy’s and I can’t go because my mom woke up & scared the crap out of us.. I would have even gotten a free meal too from Aaron. It sucks not being able to rebel. Lame.
I felt the need to cut up a few of my favorite shirts to my likings. It was a success! I got a little carried away though, so now I have to figure out a way to cover up the mistakes. Other than that, I love them even more.
I think a pair of scissors are going to be my new best friend.
"You are an artistic person - let your colors show." You have to admit that certain fortune cookies can be inspirational, regardless of it coming out of a cookie.
Do your job and get the shit done. Simple as that. Don’t pity me, don’t pity yourself, just get it done. You got yourself into this job in the first place, we paid you the money, now just do it correctly. Don’t bring your damn personal life into this, its a job! We’re not giving you a whole life story. We gave you the money upfront and all we ask of you is to do the job without being a little ass. I hate it when people don’t do their job correctly, lag on it, or blame it on their own customer when we did everything they asked. That is completely unprofessional.
Act Your Age:
You’re a 38 year old person that acts like a like a 7 year old snob. Grow up, please. This isn’t when you were little and you’d cry to your mom because someone snapped a cookie out of your hand. You’re an adult, now act like one. Or you’re a 13 year old that acts like a 21 year old. Remember that you can’t even get into a club. So don’t act like you’re the shit. You can act mature for your age that’s fine, but not where you think you’re better than people your age. You can act young for your age, but not to the point that people look at you as a child.
I was completely tired last night and knocked out in a heart beat. The dream started out like this.
I was in a crime scene around some filthy ship and I opened one of the doors. This burnt up face popped right into my face and I woke up! Or I thought I did… I ended up waking up to another damn crime scene in the desert! We were going down a tunnel that slowly got dark and all of a sudden that same face POPPED UP! Woke up AGAIN, to another damn crime scene … but in my house … and I open the closet and the face popped up again! After all that shit occurred .. I actually woke up. This happened 3 times within 2 hours. I was a big chicken so I slept in my mom’s room at like 2 in the morning. My mom started laughing how I came over with my pillow …. And it all happened once more in her room.
It was like Inception with a handful of crime scenes!! I DID NOT DESERVE THAT UNPLEASANT NIGHT!
I feel too many emotions. I’m not sure which one to grab a grip on and figure out what’s the reason for it. There’s a meaning for everything, right? There’s a cause for every problem? And an answer to every question? A reason for every feeling we feel? They’re scattered everywhere. If only I could just remove every emotion that I’ve felt before & have an empty mind. As if I’ve never experience any of these feelings before.
Maybe I wouldn’t be as afraid to take that step forward.
“If you spend your time waiting for the inspiration to come to you, for the ideas to “gush forth”, it will be too late. It is like with magazines: there is a deadline…we have deadlines and that is a healthy form of discipline. it creates ideas.”— Karl Lagerfeld
I chose to stay at home most of the time to keep my mom company, regardless of the fact we’re in different rooms doing our own thing. She feels more at ease knowing I’m at home than out with friends. I chose to not pick up the phone to hang out with a bunch of people. There’s a reason why there’s only 4 people I do decide to call. I chose to waste my money on a lot of dumb things, reason for why I’m broke to the bone. I chose to be a lazy ass most of this summer because I knew that once school started that being a lazy ass is unacceptable. I’ve messed up two years academically already, I need to make up for it.