“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.”—Jodi Picoult
The one thing that has been a big impact in my life from the start, came to an end today. It was bittersweet seeing everything slowly come to end.. but it was a happy ending to me. Its was an amazing end to this chapter in my life, so it can soon begin a new book.
Everything seems to be fast pace, time seems to go by quicker, everyone seems drained, minds seem lost, & visions seem blurry.
Maybe that’s just me, but these past few weeks have been an eye opener for myself. I really have some wonderful people in my life to create such golden memories to remember later on. To remind me it isn’t as bad as it all seems.. regardless.. they’ll be around to keep me grounded.
“To hold our tongues when everyone is gossiping, to smile without hostility at people and institutions, to compensate for the shortage of love in the world with more love in small, private matters; to be more faithful in our work, to show greater patience, to forgo the cheap revenge obtainable from mockery and criticism: all these are things we can do.”—Hermann Hesse (via tiffany-do)
Last night my friend and I talked about past relationships a lot. Reasons we think they failed, problems we could’ve prevented, but it would always end in “wow I’m lonely”. I catch myself often thinking “would I want a boyfriend so badly at times, if I had never had one before?” Seriously it puzzles me. Cause I know it’s the feeling I miss and not the actual person, but if I had never experienced that feeling, then there would be nothing to miss, and therefore nothing to want that would replace it. Andrea said people that have never had real relationships are sometimes lonelier than people that have had relationships. That makes sense too. After she left I kept thinking about people. Why do people jump to conclusions? Why do people misinterpret words? Why do people always look for the deeper meaning in simple sentences? Why do people overthink who should text who first? Why do people miss each other? Why do people over think everything? Why are people so quick to judge? All things no one can answer for me. But I like finding answers for myself to believe. I appreciate simplicity so so much. When text message saying “Hi” seriously jus means “Hi”. Smiley face, no smiley face, who cares. Why are we even texting? Do you care what I’m even doing? Probably not. These games we play are ridiculous. One heart? Too fast. Two hearts? He really likes you. But actually, they’re just 3’s. Theyre numbers. The amount of 3’s should mean so little. Missing people, thats interesting too. Because if they’re your significant other..you definitely miss the feeling. But if they’re a good friend, you actually miss that person. But the people I think we miss most, are the ones we don’t understand. You don’t know why they are quiet when you go to dinner with them, and you can’t figure out why they are attracted to certain types of music, but what you really can’t figure out is why they’re here. Why are you spending time figuring them out. Why do they make you concerned or excited. You can’t figure them out. So when they leave, you miss the fact that you missed an opportunity to understand their logic. You miss them. Cause you didn’t know them. Its simple, yet so confusing. But the best of all, is “judging”. But I’m not going to talk about that yet. Cause thats a whole other post. My thoughts are fast, and they don’t really make sense. So…bye.
The most reserved beings always have the most to say, they just never get the chance to say it. But once they do, it can be quite surprising.
In my case, it was extremely sweet what words I received today.
So much to do, so little time. Keeping in mind there’s no room for hesitation. Enjoying every moment there is left to this chapter.